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Posted: Tue Apr 1st, 2008 11:18 am | 1st Post |
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Hi Sierra and all - Firstly thank you for these Forums - I have taken my time getting here but now I really need you - all of you.
I have come to a place where I have arrived so many times in regard to food, weight and body image, self-esteem and (lack of) well-being. How many times have I (and millions of us ) reached this place time after time - year after year?
I have just finished a classic cycle for me - several weeks of feeling fantastic, big fast beach walks every day, eating great light food - thinking Ï will never go back to feeling heavy, food-obsessed etc again"- then something happens - some stress - a situation (like I have just had - an Easter Festival camping) where there is no access to good food, lots of social pressure and no opportunities to exercise - and I go on some downward spiral - I return from the weekend - have a few more lazy days - then night shifts - then relationship issues - all perfect reasons to rest more, eat more and feel awful again.
I know and Love the Laws of Attraction - I want to live them truly in this and every aspect of my life - and when I am in this nether-region - (pre-menstrual - had plenty of chocolate and pasta in past weeks, clothes that were getting lose are tight again - the 3 ks I lost are back on - thighs suddenly seem to feel tripled in size - and the worse it gets - the more I eat and the less I move) - its hard to get back in the saddle again.
Oh Sierra - I am tired of this - I watched - still watch, my mother do it - I am heartbroken to see my daughter doing it - using guilt and self-deprecation as motivators to get out of the slump. Seeing her battle with yo-yoing weight gain, over-eating and self-disapproval.
Something feels different this time - like there is some shred of self-awareness - about "really"wanting to get to know "me"on a deeper and more intimate level. Other than that I don't know what to say - I know from a brief scan that there are heaps of supportive things to read here - and I will start now........but if you can direct me where you most think I need to be Sierra (perhaps that place one can go to just make that first step back would be good)
Writing this - I must say - just gave me a little Aha! experience - the words ïs it a crime to feel that good?"came into my head "Well Yes"- a stern voice quickly replied - and its true - thats how it is for me - when I am feeling good (in my body, a relationship, a job, a friendship etc) I do seem to have a belief that pretty soon something will go wrong - Yep - I feel pretty shaky and fearful when all is well! Of course thats not all the story - but its a good piece of it.
And a bit more AHA! - living the Laws of Attraction - what more could I ask for as far as a Feel Good Recipe goes? - no wonder I have been feeling so shaky and yo-yoing so much - when I am in the flow I feel light, sexy, attractive, alive, powerful, creative - DAM SCARY STUFF Sierra! Better to cut myself down before someone else surely will!
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Suncat
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Posted: Tue Apr 1st, 2008 02:53 pm | 2nd Post |
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Hi Suncat,
I hear you about the weight issue and the emotional side of the weight. It sounds like you have some deep seated issues surrounding your weight. Have you looked into EFT (emotional freedom technique) to help you get over your hurdles?
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Posted: Tue Apr 1st, 2008 08:35 pm | 3rd Post |
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HI SUNCAT !
REMEMBER YOU ARE PERFECT JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. AND ALSO, THE PASTA OR SWEETS OR NOT MOVING AROUND ARE NOT WHAT IS CAUSING THE "PROBLEM", ITS YOUR BELEIF THAT FOOD MAKES YOU GAIN WEIGHT AND THAT YOU MUST EXCERSIZE TO LOSE WEIGHT. IT IS NOT THE FOOD OR EXCERSIZE, IT IS YOUR BELEIFS AROUND THESE SUBJECTS. YOU MAY TRY THAT BEFORE EVERY MEAL OR SNACK TO BLESS THE FOOD AND STATE THAT YOU WILL RECEIVE ALL THE GOOD NUTRIENTS FROM IT AND THE REST WILL BE DISPOSED OF. PRACTICE IT UNTIL YOU BELIEVE! IT. I AM SURE SIERRA WILL HAVE SOME WONDERFUL ADVISE FOR YOU ! YOU ARE PERFECT IN EVERYWAY, YOUR DESIRES HAVE BEEN ANSWERED, EVERY ONE OF THEM.
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Posted: Wed Apr 2nd, 2008 05:59 am | 4th Post |
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Hey Vickie - yep you are so right - and everywhere I look there are EFT signs - so I will start checking out that manual tonight - and I hear there is some great instructional stuff on youtube - but what is coming up big for me is the addiction to the highs and lows - the very shaky feeling that feeling good gives me - and the "safe"feeling of being down - I feel I am on a major learning (about me) curve right now'
Love Suncat
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Posted: Wed Apr 2nd, 2008 06:01 am | 5th Post |
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Thanks Dream Positive for your wonderful reply
Love Suncat
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Posted: Mon Apr 7th, 2008 07:30 am | 6th Post |
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Hi Sierra - I meant to put this in your "Go ahead and ask me"thread but boo-bood.
If you have any input i'd be grateful.
I am currently pulled between looking at being totally in Abes teachings and focuing on Changing My Thoughts - versus looking at diet, green tea etc etc. I know the journey is a personal one - I do love the idea of just changing my thoughts and feelings re food and my body. However I cant sem to maintain it more than a few hours - especially in my stressful work place - it is not unusual for me (and hasn't been since I was a latchkey kid 40 years ago) to suddenly eat so fast and so much that I nearly choke or I have intense gut pain - my drug of choice when uncomfortable thoughts or feelings come up.
I am not overweight enough (probably 20lbs ) to attract medical concern, be viewed as having an eating disorder - but I feel like I certainly do and I am so dam tired of this ïssue"being the cornerstone of my life.
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Posted: Tue Apr 8th, 2008 07:38 pm | 7th Post |
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Hi Suncat!!
I am just seeing your post now!!! I am not sure if you read my other posts about going through the emotions on why you keep the weight on. I would definately say to work on your feelings of something will go wrong when things are going right!!! Have you seen our I AM Game section??.... I would start with working on "I am Worthy!" Because you are 
Almost everyone uses food as an emotional crutch and we are raised to use food in social situations and as a reward for good behavior! I really believe in finding the balance in it all. Before the cruise, I had the best intentions to stay mostly on raw foods.... but it became almost impossible to do mostly because I wanted to sit down and eat with everyone else and I wanted to try all the wonderful things on the menu!!
I was surprised at how fast my old bad eating habits came back... after starting to eat things I normally wouldn't eat at home, I easily fell back into major over eating, using the cruise as an excuse. I pigged out
Luckily, when I got home, I was able to get right back on track. I also have lots of motivation.... I am going to Sedona, Arizona with a friend next week and I need my jeans to fit me!!! I just refuse to ever go back to being obese again. It's just not who I am anymore!!!
I think when we go through phases of over eating, and I believe it happens to everyone, you just learn how to balance it all back out and get back on track as soon as possible.
It's about finding a lifestyle that is the way you eat all the time, not just a diet that you follow for a short while.
And Hon, LET YOUR GOOD IN!! When things are going good, stick with that, know that you are worthy and deserve for good things to happen to you!!!
I hope this helps..... I will write more later, but wanted to get back to you... I am not sure how I missed your post earlier!!!
 Sierra
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Posted: Wed Apr 9th, 2008 12:28 am | 8th Post |
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Thanks So Much Sierra - I am going to try the things you suggested starting NOW - especially Letting the GOOD in - when I am feeling good. Had just hung up from a call from my cousin when I read your post. We both agreed re how blessed we are to have found Abraham's teachings -and acknowledged in each other how far we had come.
Difference is - she is a tall rake-thin woman - who wished she didn't have to be bothered with food - eating preparation etc - she has to make a conscious effort to eat (as I sit here typing doing conscious battle with the tub of Halva in the fridge!)
But we do strongly share this fearful, giddy shaky feeling when we are feeling good - and the safe comfortable (its not really at all) feeling of feeling bad.
We related how on some days you wake and you just feel good and its easy to keep the feeling going - and on others you wake with a negative thought or feelings - or a list of issues or chores - and you plummet down to that familiar "safe"bog you call "real life". I remembered the advice to fall asleep with appreciation - to program myself to wake with those thoughts and feelings in the morning and watch a more beautiful day unfold. We feel out of control (in the moment) if we are not worrying, controlling or organising.
So for now Sierra I will hold to these words -
I am worthy to feel good and Happy all the time - Happiness is my natural state - It is safe to feel Light, Happy and Good.
I look forward to hearing more from you and being part of your wonderful Forums.
Love Suncat
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Posted: Sun May 4th, 2008 04:17 pm | 9th Post |
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HI SUNCAT!!
I am just checking in with you to see how you are doing!! I know that this is an ongoing process for all of us and I just wanted to let you know we are here for you!
Let me know if you have any further questions or comments.
Sierra
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