That's me for sure. I'm STUCK and resist the calling of the feeling of love and appreciation. I like that feeling - I liken it also to the feeling that 'damn, I can't believe I really lost all this weight and I'm actually skinny!' Endorphins and the feeling that I can walk down the street truly breathing and feeling happy & as though this is how life was meant to be lived. Healthy! Strong! And not wasting any time in this life which is a gift.
Instead, I continue to fall off the wagon. I don't feel the call quite strong enough. I wish there was a secret that I don't know about. Envisioning where I want to be is easier than denying it. I am one small step away from the vibration that I sense. Instead I give in thinking, oh one more day of being average. I'll seek that path tomorrow. I'll eat this piece of pie with my family because it feels good too.
Isn't that interesting that us humans actually deny ourselves what we know what will make us feel better. Why do we do that? We ALL DO IT. I have noticed that about me a lot lately. I think, at least for me, it is a part of feeling self worth and remembering who you really are. If we know we will be happier thin, why do we overeat knowing we will feel bad about it later?
For me a big turning point was making a list of what I was gaining by being overweight and dealing with those issues one by one. We overeat and abuse our bodies for a reason that we have, there is something about it that gives us at least temporary pleasure or satisfaction. Then comes the guilt afterwards. You have to give yourself those pleasures and satisfaction in other ways than with food.
I also think a big part is really being happy where you are. That is the big secret, the key. Being happy now. I know that is hard when you are in the middle of it and feeling less than worthy, but that is the most important time to pull yourself out and find your joy. I know this. I am going through it now, not with weight but with other things. I know what I need to do, but when you are feeling bad, it is hard to get inspired to fix it. The solution? LOVE YOURSELF MORE. Love yourself enough to know that you deserve everything you want, you are divine and you are a vital part of the whole collective consciousness.
Have you seen the I AM game posted here? It is very good for finding your self worth and self love.
Thank you for your support, Sierra. I am going to go find the I AM game. Sounds like fun! By the way I explored some of those love myself ideas today. I stocked up what we easiest and healthiest to fix - I even found 90 second brown rice! That was made just for me I think. Anyway, the cloud is lifting. I have my dolphin earrings on and am sensing great power of the collective consiousness infusing me. Ah, strength!
Wishing YOU all the internal joy you can find today!!